i'm really sad.

i'm really tired from working and i just wish i could be sleeping right now.

i should probably get around to being happy again.

it used to be so easy.

life has gotten a lot more complicated these past few years..it's just so hard to deal with sometimes.

i don't like riding emotional rollercoasters. i like riding REAL ones. and Sadee, only she doesn't let me do it that much.

darn.

( late 2008 surveys. )

Identities assume us,
As nine and five add up
Synchronizing watches,
To the seconds that we lost
I looked up and saw you,
I know that you saw me
We froze but for a moment,
In empathy

I brought down the sky for you but all you did was shrug
You gave my emptiness a name
But you ran away
Now all my friends are gone
Maybe we've outgrown all the things that we once ( Read more... )

"IAmDaveyVanHalen: i hope she doesnt turn out like christine hazard"

circa september 15th, 2004.

i also LOVE finding things like this in livejournals. SO entertaining!

 i love reading lj secrets sometimes.

it makes me appreciate my life that much more. =)

he read my messages. it said so. he logged in today, too.

he has yet to respond.

hm, i hope i didn't freak him out or something. i'm always so afraid of doing that to people.

i feel like, in these situations, the other person doesn't understand my intentions. ha, mainly just with him..

i hope i'm just being paranoid and over analyzing this.

whoops. didn't..update. i haven't been on the computer in a while, anyway. i'm about to go take a shower, because i don't think i'll sleep comfortably if i don't. my sleep pattern has been messed up since friday and it's putting me out of whack. or..in the whack, i should say. i hope i don't wake my parents up when i'm in the bathroom. i wish i had ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in foreverrrr and a day.

I got a tattoo on Monday evening. Technically, 2.

I was just reading through all of my old entries. I've had this thing since 2003 and I've noticed I've grown up a LOT. I almost thought about deleting it, but it's not like I read old entries for the memories. I know how things are now and that's all that ( Read more... )

i don't know.