I find myself feeling guilty about things i have doing to myself. The drugs. But at the same time i only have guilt because of what my friends or family might think. WHy should i feel this way? Its not their bodies , its mine. Besides, i like the drugs. I am young. I should be having lots of experimentation ( Read more... )

My friend is going wacky. Wacky for Tobacky. I have a lot of shit to catch up on today. Work Work Work. Then hopefully some play.

Elise and I were going to grace ugly fucks with our presence at the Fly show this weekend. She says she does not want to attend because of her bastard Ex and his new child lover. So apon hearing of the swingers party and most likely getting to see her naked and possibly more ( I KNOW she can be co-ersed because she's vulnerable) I have decided to ( Read more... )

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Great Weather today. There is thunder, and probably lightening. I suppose the Order of The Fly show has been cancelled. Can't control the weather, Or can you ( Read more... )

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The Order Of The Fly is performing in a few weeks. I am tempted to go, but unfortunatly there is a boy there that does not get along with me in the least ( Read more... )

I have been so busy I have not Had much time to write. Things are chaotic as of now. I find being blunt and honest towards people tends to get them upset. They don't want to hear it, or refuse to. Either way, I may as well drop it already. I fight and fight for it.

But with no such luck.

Need to sleep.

Cannot.

Booze.

Pot.

Sleeping Pills.

All empty.