i really need an outlet right now. and myspace just isnt very personal. its just so darn dependent on people responding to you that you feel everything has to be a certain way or whatnot...but i mostly use it for witnessing and here is much more personal. i think i will get even more personal and start writing in my actual journal again. while we ( Read more... )

so my midwife thinks i may have had a bout of preterm labor, which i think i know what it was triggered by, but im not saying ( Read more... )

thank you all so much for coming. you dont know how much it meant to me
<3

But Flesh And Blood need Flesh And Blood

And you're the one I need

Flesh And Blood need Flesh And Blood

And you're the one I need.

So when this Day was ended

I was still not satisfied

For I knew ev'rything I touched

Would wither and would die

And Love is all that will remain

And grow from all these Seed;

last night i fell down some stairs. it was scary. and im real sore. i think i need to make some changes

so im looking at possibly not seeing russell, my dad, and my brother for the next 4 months. i think ill die. who will i hang out with?

well ive reached the half-way mark, 20 weeks along now. isnt it wonderful? i hear its all downhill from here.

oh and if you wanted to come to the baby shower, i would be much obliged if you left your address here!
:)

why do people have to be so damn weak? hmm?? why do i have to be such a stupid jerk.

dustin, how do you walk away from someone. i keep telling myself i need to, but i end up right here again, depressed and shit on.

i wish i wasnt pregnant so i would have the luxury of contemplating suicide. sweet dreams, eh?

russells brother is watching these horrible fights on his computer.... boys are so dumb, they fight over anything and everything.....

at least when i get mad and violent, its for a somewhat decent reason.

ah jeeze i just dont know what to do anymore.

i was watching this movie, it was a happy movie, but it had a sad ending ( Read more... )