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[oreomagic5]

today was officially the worst day in a long time. i dont know how much longer i can live like this. today i cried for the first time in years. literally, years. i couldnt stop. i seriously dont even know what to do anymore. im so frustrated and confused and i just hate everything. i hate myself, and my life, and the fact that i have no friends.

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[frosty_pickle]

Look at the pancake bunny and be happy!

[bri_mo]

1-shut the fuck up, I CARE
2-im sorry you're sad, i love you.
3-call me anytime you want, even if its 2 am and im drunker than hell, ill always talk to you.
4-im really sad that you feel this way, and i hope you feel better.
5-come home, i miss you.

[oreomagic5]

thanks bri, i love you! i seriously cant live like this bri. i miss you so much. i seriously dont even really laugh anymore.

[bri_mo]

ahh, no worries gin. i'll be here when you get home, movies puddles and others things will still be here when you get home.
and, this too shall pass.
no feeling lasts forever, good or bad.
cheer up!
call me tonite if you want, NO WORKKK.
yay

[somnusfable]

I think maybe I am going through something similar. Maybe you need to look at life through another eye. You know, you can always change the path you are on. I do not care what anyone else says it is never too late. Remember, you are not small, you are not large, you are not unimportant but at the same time--in the grand scheme of things--you are not important.

Forget everyone else and their problems, you wish to help them. I wish to help them too. Things cannot always turn out the way we want them, that is one of the only truths to this world. You need to work on yourself first, before you decide you save everyone else. Also you must ask yourself, should you even bother to save them, are they worth saving? If so, pour your heart into it.

You cannot force someone to change but you can point out their mistakes and hope they understand.

[oreomagic5]

do i know you?

you dont know me very well. i cant be happy when those around me arnt. its just the way i am. besides, i dont deserve to be happy. as much fun as it would be to forget all those around me and just "be happy" its not going to happen. ive come to terms with it.

Hi

[ms_sixty]

I don't know you at all, but I came across your journal.

To some extent I understand what you're saying. It's hard to be fully happy or even content when things are going on with people you care about. Whether it's small or large, their problem becomes yours.

I know that I am very close with my family and as soon as something happens to someone it's like it hits me even harder.

If you want to talk you can always reply. I don't know you so I could probably help or at least be there with an open mind.

Re: Hi

[oreomagic5]

yeah i dont talk about things to my best friends let alone complete strangers. thanks for the offer though.

[vulcmoto]

"yeah i dont talk about things to my best friends let alone complete strangers. thanks for the offer though."

Maybe it's time to start?

Start with Bri. And keep in mind that there are a lot of people out there without a Bri in their lives.

I was in a real pissy, bummer mood some time back. I was focusing on the negative, feeling sorry for myself. As I was driving, I saw a guy with one arm walking with a bag of groceries. It dawned on me that I had nothing to complain about. I have all of my limbs, I'm in good health, and I have enough money to get all the things I need and most of what I want.

I haven't focused in the negative since.

You have at least one person that loves you, and she made that clear. You aren't living in a cardboard box. I'll assume you're healthy and have all your limbs.

And some advice - care about those who care about you. Don't fret over anyone else.

Oh - and I found your journal on a random search. I apologize if I'm intruding. I really do just want to help a little.

Best wishes!

[oreomagic5]

i have huge problems opening up to people. all growing up i never talked about my feelings and all taht crap. its a little late to start changing that now. i have always been the listener not the talker, and im okay with that. as for the negativity thing, i wish i could change but i cant. and the reason it was the worst day ever is because i almost set my house on fire and potentially killed one of my roommates/best friend, so yeah, i was a little bit negative.