*sigh*

[origamigrl]

Last night I attended my cousin's high school commencement and was again hit with the thought of how much things have and will change. It still feels like I've missed out on so much of high school - definitely socially and perhaps academically. Being in an environment with so many of my peers really rubs it in. Over the past two years I've become

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[echospirit]

Well I don't know you personally other than a few posts from RMP, but I can honestly say that from what I do know, you have a good head on your shoulders and that is something a lot of people your age don't have. Don't be ashamed EVER of where you came from. Your experiences at this period of your life make you who you are. In the next few years you will truly come into your own and realize who you are truly meant to be. Not trying to sound like an old lady, I am only 26, but I was just there myself. Finish what "feels" right to you. If it isn't losing weight, who the hell cares. I learned a long time ago that when I try to change something about me, that is not meant to be changed, it makes trying to do so more difficult. And it seems to me that the things that aren't meant to be changed have to do with how others perceive me and while I know that is a concept that might be very near and dear to you, that too will change. Make YOU happy, and the rest will seriously fall into place. I know that sounds like something your mom

[origamigrl]

Thanks, you're a big encouragement. :) By the way, even though I don't comment, I still read your site. Hope things are well!

Despair not, I say

[wudu_wasa]

Hmmmmmm.........so I suppose this is the reason why you look morose almost every time I see you at school. Don't worry, you have lots of time to improve. Just keep at it. I should know. I learned a long time ago that I shouldn't let what other people with limited understanding affect the way I view myself. In high school I was put into a SDC class primarily due to my slothful performance. The next year I was tutoring my SDC class with a Rotary Award for excellence in videography and a student of the month under my belt.

I suppose what I understand from your post is that you want some sort of acknowledgment of what you've accomplished, something to verify that it wasn't a waste of time, and to have someone to take joy in what you do. Am I close?

Re: Despair not, I say

[origamigrl]

I never see you at school... Do I really look morose? I'm usually just tired - I tend to be happy on campus.

SDC?

"I suppose what I understand from your post is that you want some sort of acknowledgment of what you've accomplished"

That would be nice, but it's not really needed. It just feels like I've missed out on high school.

"something to verify that it wasn't a waste of time,"

No diploma or paper can do that. I'm more bemoaning the fact that I feel ignorant. Besides, half of it *has* been a waste of time.

"to have someone to take joy in what you do."

er, I don't care about that quite as much...

"Am I close?"

lol, no, but nice try. :)

Re: Despair not, I say

[wudu_wasa]

Well I happen to pass you by a few times on my way to class or vice versa. I suppose that when one is ususally looking at the ground, they tend to look melancholy.

Sometimes I come within a few feet of you but you usually don't notice probably because you're so tired.

SDC:
Special
Day
Class

What do you miss exactly and are you sure that your ignorance is just a case of spring fever?

Re: Despair not, I say

[origamigrl]

Really? I never see you - next time poke me so that I notice you! oh wait, there won't really be a next time, unless you transfer to UCLA. :P

I think I look at the ground out of habit. Didn't relaly notice until you pointed that out... I'm not looking down at my feet, just at the ground a dozen or so feet ahead of me. Maybe it comes from walking on too many ledges on rainy days. haha. I usually look up when I'm wearing sunglasses - I can look at people freely then. :P