this has been the worst year of my entire life. i keep telling myself it can't possibly get any worse, and then it does. i cannot wait until jan. 1 2005 when i have the opportunity to throw this year out. it has to get better...i cannot and will not spend another year like this. none of this is worth it. i can't deal.

Her body passes with adjustments ( Read more... )

spending life listenin to her favorite song ( Read more... )

well i am settled into my new place, love the new roommates. this is the first time i've ever lived with people i didn't know and i'm not sure what i was afraid of before. they are all the sweetest girls, incredibly fun...if only they were 21. oh well i just have lots of 21st birthdays to look forward to. it's great to be back out with sara, my ( Read more... )

What Does Love Mean ( Read more... )

"If you are discontented in your current location, no matter how snowy, rural, or impoverished it may be, you will likely be discontented in a sunny paradse where life is simple and easy ( Read more... )

was i ever really in love, or just addicted to the pain, the exsquisite pain of wanting something so unattainable?

and just like that...i am free. but there is nothing exsquisite about it.

so it's been a while. the rents are divorced. dad's in waterford, my mom and i will be in phoenix shortly. shit has hit the fan along with all of this. i lost my best friend. i lost three years worth of school along with many other things i thought were permanent. it takes a lot of balls to start over but i'm finding myself with no other ( Read more... )

When you are old and grey and full of sleep ( Read more... )

things were going good. really good. until about 5 minutes ago. I just figured out my bills and now have $36 to live on until the 23rd. not good. then i read my e-mail and read some very disturbing news which i will not share. i'll just say it put me in a very tight situation. if i go one way i'll cause myself possibly months of stressing out and ( Read more... )