so I have been keeping busy. I built a computer and I need a job. Holloween is almost here.

I just got home with a record featuring the Shangri-Las, the Dixie Cups, the Ad-Libs and many other wonderful 60's fun time bands. So yay for that and it only being two dollars. I will probably give it to shelby though since I already have some of those bands on other records and she will hopefully like it a lot. I am working at the california ( Read more... )

well, another night and here I sit. The rain and the wind are wonderful, especially in the early hours of the morning. I have a wonderful person to go home to and that makes me happy. We cried tonight, it was a good cry and we both needed to let it out. Secrets are strange things. I am going to get donuts and then fall asleep next to Shelby. I miss ( Read more... )

I always tried to avoid being an asshole. I have been reading my old entries from four years ago and i have come to the conclusion that I am an asshole. I am fucked up and I have hurt people and that really sucks. I don't want to hurt people. I don't know what I want. Love is random. I need sleep. I want to be important to myself and to others. I ( Read more... )

just writing to say that christmas is coming and i am so out of it at the moment. i met a girl and spend all my time with her. which is good and bad. we like eachother a lot and i am happy. of course i am always sad anyhow because i am always sad. claire is coming to town for new years and i am supposed to make it fun with a party but it is going ( Read more... )

holloween was fun, i went in drag as usual.

i really need to start writing. or doing something, anything at all really. It is raining again, i like the rain, especially a slow constant all day cold rain when I have the day off to just sit at home and drink hot chocolate. I think I like this weather, fall in general, because it reflects how I often feel on a day to day basis. rain has always ( Read more... )

I think that my neighbor is giving psychiatric help to my room mate. It is odd. they sit in his room late at night talking about stuff, weird stuff, about feelings kind of stuff ( Read more... )

I am graduating college in a week. I should, if all is well leave with two B.A.'s  in photography and video production. I am very nervous as I feel that I lack the responsibility needed to make it in the real world. if there is one thing that I learned in college it is that college is nothing like the real world. If I can graduate with two degrees ( Read more... )

life at the moment is a bit too insane for me to deal with. I haven't any friends, well at least close ones. My living situation is entirely up in the air. I was living in a house but my room mate left and I can't afford to live their on my own for another month and I have too much stuff for an apartment as well as I need my stuff because it is ( Read more... )