We have no control over our own emotions. They set in, take over, and either let you fly, or bury you into the ground ( Read more... )

I manage to defeat myself every time. Evil always wins. But wrong never felt so right. I keep jesus on my wall just for this reason. I doubt it does much.

I'd say ive got about two weeks to figure things out again. Otherwise I might let it all come undone.
I really should get to bed.

back on lj for the first time in over a year. it feels wierd, but ive revamped in almost everyway.

so this week in march. a strange crazy wonderful stressful week. it started great, with a date a kiss, and talks of doing it again soon, like friday. but now it feels wierd. i feel a distance forming. maybe it is needed and i should just let it be and ( Read more... )

Its so nice to be back in Davis. It just feels so much different, and better. Im looking forward to seeing all my friends and family. whoooooo baby i love your way. every day. i want to be with you night and day.

I know you dont have to remind me. Snow, yeah its pretty and white. But its fucking cold. You cant even touch it. WTF? In old country we ride bicycles on road to beach swim in water. This time year not cold as here. I tell you.

So tired. Stayed up super late with Monika while she was working on an essay. Not bad, just now im overwhelmingly tired ( Read more... )

this is where it gets interesting. my life. where am i? far away. what am i going to do now? can someone help me with this please? im lost. really.

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She picked me up, we drove back to hers. I sat there as she left, now alone, i was sitting. still now with a question: What to do with myself? This is a common question for me, one that is reacurring all the time, and always i finish with doubt. So i put on a movie. Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind ( Read more... )

You are a
Social Liberal
(80% permissive)

and an...
Economic Liberal
(10% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Socialist

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