so...monday night i had a dream about my ex. and it wasn't a nice "we're friends/happy again" type of dream. it was everything i used to be put through with him. controlling, mental and physical abuse, feeling trapped. and i woke up feeling so enclosed and angry. i hate that. i don't like reliving one of the worst years of my life in my sleep. ( Read more... )

wow. 154 weeks. i do not even know if i can put into words what has happened in the last 154 weeks. so maybe we'll just leave out the shitty stuff ( Read more... )

its amazing how at one instant, you can feel so totally connected with someone. like sisters. and then she can turn around and stab you in the back. leaving you to rely heavily on people you'd never imagine you'd have to ( Read more... )

met a boy.
got drunk.
hit $40k.
got drunk again to celebrate.
spent the WHOLE day with nicole (best girl in the world!)
get to see boy tomorrow =)

apartment people suck.
bills suck.
class sucks (although i can't wait for fall when i start my new major!)

all in all...not a bad week or two.

i just got back from visting lindsay =) she is one of the most amazing friends i have. i love her. shes one of those friends you can totally look up to. like liz. like right now liz is in new york city on an internship, how awesome is that! and lindsay is studying abroad in italy in the spring. so i'm gonna head over there for spring break. woo ( Read more... )

first day off in forrr-evvv-uuur (yup, u got it. just like in the sandlot.) its pretty sad though that on my only day off i'm just relaxing and watching tv allll day. but its ok cause when nicole gets home from work i'm gonna drag her to the gym. =) she loves me. other than just working between 40-50 hours a week...life is good. my boss and i have ( Read more... )

if not for finals...this week would be the BEST.

good news...nicole and i are the first people on the waiting list for our apt next year. bad news...i had a WAR with turner. but it was awesome. atleast i said the shit i needed to say and barely let him get a word in. muhahahaha. plus, it makes me even more anxious to get the f- outta here ( Read more... )

well its really early in the morning and nicole is supposed to be awake so we can work out. i think i'm becoming obsessed with it. oh i heard about that on vh1, when you become obsessed with exercising, what was it? exercise bulimia? oh i don't know. who cares ( Read more... )

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