well i got up at dawn for a walk this a.m. i've decided that not having a gym membership is a dumb idea ( Read more... )

well, last week i felt pretty good. really confident in my abilities and ok about the job. now the old anxiety is back. I have a knot in my stomach. I am really tense. I've not been exercising. and bought a pair of shoes for $80 yesterday, kind of screwing the budgeting plans. and there is a boatload of work coming up. and i'm breaking out ( Read more... )

I'm back to work, dealing with more cases brought on by people who have no idea how to interact with one another. Sometimes, I just want to ask, "Who raised you? Did they not teach you basic respect and manners?" The answer is always no. People in this world think they are entitled to treat one another as toys, or disposable objects. And in my ( Read more... )

Tonight we get on a plane. Oh my God ( Read more... )

i've had that sad little lullaby in my head all morning.

i have so much to juggle ( Read more... )

I stayed in ALL weekend. Sat mostly on the couch. Barely mustered the energy to clean up around the place. Watched a bit of television. Saw a cute British movie called "Saving Grace" about a bankrupt widow that takes to growing pot in her greenhouse to get back to financial stability. Except the damned DVD from netflix had scratches, so I ( Read more... )

So, we're actually making something happen here ( Read more... )

we're making some food to send to a co-worker. she's just 3 or 4 years older than me and dying of cancer. it's spread throughout her body and the doctors are doing a last-ditch effort to remove what they can tomorrow. she has 3 little kids ( Read more... )

i'm trying to do what i can to cope with an awkward and difficult time. i don't go to church. i don't want to mope. i don't want to drink (it doesn't help anyhow). and i most certainly don't want to eat through the sadness and end up swelled all over ( Read more... )