last night i tried to have a quiet night in ( Read more... )

what is it that makes us keep moving forward? much of my life has been defined by reaching goals. getting into schools, attending, doing well, graduating, finding job, etc. there wasn't any stopping and thinking of whether i actually wanted the things i was working towards ( Read more... )

not that i'm old, i'm just not as much as a bleeding idiot anymore ( Read more... )

what is wrong with me?

i wanted to do things, go out and be social this weekend. instead, i spent all the time inside. recovering, it felt like.
i really needed to take care of myself. no alcohol, caffeine or spicy foods. boohoo.
i hope there is a plan in the works. i will be in a bloody good mood when things change.

is eating me from the inside out.

pulling myself out of a funk is quite difficult. but, wot, are drugs gonna do it better? methinks not ( Read more... )

These Days All the Best Men Are Lesbians

Old hobo: So, can I have your number?
Pretty girl, who's been ignoring him for a while: Uh, no...
Old hobo: Well, you're a lesbian! You don't want no man!
Pretty girl: I already have a man.
Old hobo: Yeah, a lesbian man!

--2nd Ave subway stop

Overheard by: Dahlia

via Overheard in New York, Jun 4, 2007

spent all a.m. getting ass chewed at work. chewed hard. like it was full of gristle and whatnot.

i want a different life. nay, i NEED a different life.

i think the brain is trying to right itself. i have the monkees' "daydream believer" running through my head.

the sky outside is filled with smelly, smoky haze. I can't believe the wildfires made it this far.

the therapist made me wonder. maybe what i want is not that good for me afterall. i'm confused. i want to sit on the couch and watch britcoms with friends (and champ) and wail and moan.

well the trip was very good. not perfect, but what is ( Read more... )