soffocating towns in a far away place

[ost_love]

I cried today, as I read her 'zine and thought about everything she was saying and how fucking right she was [always is] and then I thought about all those people at home that I will never see again. And how home wont really be home anymore

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[lackadaisie]

hey love-
i know its hard.
Its hard here too, and never what we expected.....i miss you, and i miss home.
But you are strong, and I am strong because you taught me to be.
Now tell me, loveface, what would you attempt if you knew you would not fail?

[ost_love]

i would attempt love. i would attempt life. i would attempt the stars and the sky and the sun shining on your beautiful face. i would attempt to do everything perfect so maybe my rewards would be being back with you at home with the waves splashing up on us as we scamper around and you help me overcome my fear of the water. and the city lights polluting the air and showing us the urban stars instead of the ones that i adore as much as i adore you.
things will be like that again one day, wont it? if we attempt things that are bigger than us, than maybe the bigger thing will be us together. would you mind if that happened? would you dream for it too? would you lovelovelove it if we believed in all of this again and lived our make-believe life and smoked curls of white smoke and drank bottles of intoxicating liquids that make our breath smell funny in the morning and make us roll around half naked in bed. would you be as happy as i would be? would you attempt it too?

[anonymous]

I love you. I want you to come back for Christmas so badly. I feel like if everyone was back then everything would be okay...and maybe we'd get closure, or something like it. I feel so alone here cause everything is so different, but I just have to remember that that's why I chose it and that I am safe cause God or someone is always watching over me...if you believe that, that is.

Love you,
Audrey
(we'll always have our cell phones)

[ost_love]

hi aw-drey-face
have i told you today that i love you and i miss you?
i dont think i can come back at xmas - i dont have the money. i want to come back maybe for graduation? i dont want to go when people are going to be away on holidays - or maybe spring break? im not sure yet.
i get really sad when i think of home, and i wish i could stay there forever, but i know it was mostly the people that i loved - and the freedom and lack of worries.
i love you dear
xx ray-chel