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every time something else stretches me thin enough to see through, to examine, i will not be afraid. i am not afraid. i am just drained from the effort of resisting spontaneity. drained from presenting myself for examination. one year ago i didn't feel fit to walk into an office. i felt a fraud. like my politics and drug use and criminality were ( Read more... )

if i think all the magic is gone ( Read more... )

gradually it happens. honesty turns into legitimacy and i wind up accomplished. i finish things, i progress, i pay bills and cash checks. i just hung out with my 4-year-old friend, muriel, and we get along so well because the same colorful bits of city filth catch our eyes. we both wonder what's on the inside of the pillow case zipper. except she ( Read more... )

when i am not working, i am studying (well, and sometimes i study while at work ( Read more... )

in bloody teeth that ripped
the skin out from under
where she lay, living
like frailty itself

in rubbed-raw hands that cupped
the life gave up
where she was living
cause where else she gon live

not a cover for what
she was and wasn't
nobody, nothing's got
a cure for that

"a woman under the influence," 1974
written & directed by john cassavetes
starring peter falk & gena rowlands

a totally engrossing, tense portrayal of how a housewife's madness fractures her suburban family.

bloody hell this film dug in and didn't let go. every component--cinematography, direction, score, script, acting--was well-orchestrated and ( Read more... )

new dream job: copy-edit for encyclopaedia brittanica.

with my harmony korine film project not even begun (the first four films are sitting on the holds shelf at the public library), i already have a second one in mind: the documentary films of errol morris! i've never seen any of them, but they all seem suitably fascinating. researching his filmography reminded me of the documentary, hands on a hard ( Read more... )

i just fell in love with gwendolyn brooks.