FUCK YOU UWM FINANCIAL AID FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! That is all.

When that stuff hits it's like "Don't forget, I own you". Just whispers it in my mind and brings it all back like it was never gone. Such a downer. It's not staying, just wish it wouldn't throw me off kilter like that. I got plans and dreams in process, no time to live in that old shit. It's like I'm running headlong into bliss and then I feel this ( Read more... )

I'm back on the ball. I see my progress towards having the life I want ebbs and flows. Sometimes its easier than others. It just gets weird, or hard, or boring, or whatever. I wish I could just balance, keep pushing forward and be able to breath. Sometimes I think its like I take a nap for a few weeks, being un productive and un accountable, and ( Read more... )

Went out dancing last night, slept in once this week, and I spent an all nighter playing games last week. And I'm ahead. In my readings and homework. GO ME!

I'm really enjoying myself today. I'm really glad I went to the workshop this weekend, it help me come back to my preferred state of mind: Confident, hopeful, powerful, smart, strategic, strong willed. Things are going well. Things will continue to go well, I'm the champion of that!

I'm getting very excited about the momentum I'm creating. Calling to set up a meeting today for tomorrow with study abroad to set that up. The next day my advisor to set up the rest of my classes. The next day a meeting with a professor about doing some research this semester. Work looks, moving out at the end of the semester, davita's home, my ( Read more... )

It's nice to know that I'm no longer just a nice guy but rather a well rounded assertive stand up guy. It feels better.

This is what I want today. I want to win in my classes. I want to win at work (easily accomplished). And I want to see Rachel. Thats all. Oh, and I want to hold onto everything while I do it. Thats not so easy, but fuck it, I'M GOING TO WIN. I so done with being anything but what I want to be. Strong, free, smart, loved, connected, moving with ( Read more... )

I have always had a talent for catching on quick. That once I understand something I understand it completely, adopt it fully. It's a strong asset of mine. It's lead me to a decision though, the hardest decision I've ever made and have to continuously make. It's the decision to be present. It seems simple but it's a very involved decision. I have ( Read more... )

Apprentice of a master, and an adept in my own right.