Riku and I have reached the mutual agreement that Wolfgang is insane. he has done nothing for the past two days but play Beethoven's moonlight sonata on the piano. it's beautiful, tho. he's amazing on the piano, and moonlight sonata is probably the most gorgeous piece ever written for piano. so i've been feeling romantic :D ( Read more... )

 i'm dying of heat stroke. it is SO HOT out. i feel sick, i have a headache, and i'm all sweaty. and it's not good to be sweaty when you have a lot of hair. i actually shaved twice today and put my hair up in a ponytail. but i was still miserable. so i went and shaved off all my pubic hair too. immediately after i did it i freaked out, but now i ( Read more... )

i've been spending a lot of time talking and thinking about my past. i think it's a good thing, but it's hard. i've been crying a lot, and i couldn't sleep last night for nightmares. i ended up sneaking into Wolfgang's bed like a little kid sneaking into his parents' room. *sigh* i think it's good to get it off my chest, though. this stuff has been ( Read more... )

i'm so angry i could spit nails. here's what happened. i was on the bus coming back from salem. i got behind this lady who was talking to her friends about civil rights and obama and shit, and she said that the highest percentage of americans under the poverty line are black. now, friends, that is not true. the highest percentage of americans under ( Read more... )

urg. denial is not a good thing, and me and riku haven't had a chance to have real, satisfying sex in about a week. do you have any idea what that means? my entire body is bruised and cut and sore as hell after last night. he beat me, but this time with his favorite: the cat. i think it's properly called a cat o' nine tails, but we just call it the ( Read more... )

yes, orange juice. it is the greatest thing on this earth. and i have a gigantic cup of it next to me on my desk, and it's wonderful. my back is all bruised because Riku beat me with a cane last night, so i can't move, but my orange juice makes it all better =)

i'll put all my own personal feelings on display for the whole world to see, but i hate ( Read more... )

*sigh* on one hand, i just had very sweet sex with Wolfgang, not rough like it usually is. it was kinda nice to just be with him like that. on the other friend, one of my friends is going away for a WHOLE WEEK *cry* so i'm all mixed up right now...

i'm also fucking frustrated because NO BAND ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH IS COMING TO MASSACHUSETTS!!!! ok ( Read more... )

rawr, i was gonna go on a livejournal rampage, but i can't cuz we're watching home movies of Riku and Wolfgang when they were kids *pout* whatever, i have nothing to do tomorrow...
so, tema, if/when you read this, don't call me, let me call you when we're done watching, k?

i have to talk to riku and wolfgang, but i have to straighten out my head before i do or everything will come out wrong.

only an hour ago, i was extremely humiliated. riku and wolfgang wanted to have sex after supper, but i had promised a friend i had been talking too before supper that i would call her back. the two of them gave each other the ( Read more... )

 last night was both stressful and incredible at the same time. Riku wrapped up my chest and arms with plastic wrap, so that my arms where stuck crossed-over each other like Dracula or an Egyptian Pharaoh, and then he locked me up (naked, of course) in his closet. periodically, he would take me out, fuck me hard, and then stuff me back in the ( Read more... )