im am 20 years old now. old enough to know the wiles of this world. i know what i like and what i dont like...a couple of years ago i would have told you that i was sad.. im still sad but in different ways.. i miss people more, but i have made a lot of new friends.. i keep in touch with those that i used to know... what a cruel world we live in.

when i met you.. you promised more joy then pain. when i knew you before we hoped that all would be okay. i bet laugh at the thought of me thinking for myself. i bet you believe that im better off with you than someone else.

its been great week.. i have a girl friend her name is jessie.. i like her a lot.. she makes me feel so good inside...i think about her all the time..

today had been rather a downer... im poor, my family is poor. i guess everyone would agree that nothing is what it seems.. tonight we ate KFC, but thats not the problem im not saying im better then that but... it hurts my feelings to see that my dad did not want to eat it... he wanted us to go out to dinner and have a nice dinner somewhere fancy ( Read more... )

ive been in school for 3 months now. ive had a lot to think about. i highly recommened taking a philosophy course even if you think its so called "bull shit for life" it has greatly affected how i interact with other humans and how i view other peoples decision. sometimes it can be bad because i tend to start to dwell on why did that person do this ( Read more... )

i think im going insane...... and im not kidding and not sure how to handle it...

its always been that way... making due what i have had done... ive been done.. i hate who we've become fake fronts with lies behind are backs that we keep from each other and that were ashamed of...

its been a long day so far im tired not feeling well.. and a plus is that im getting a new tattoo today so hopefully all goes well with that... im so glad i got to see johanna this week i miss her alot when ever she's gone.. i wish i could see her more than i get too. im depressed.

Lord hear my Prayer..

im feeling like the world is crushing me one person at a time... and indeed i did love you.. and you looked pretty... infact u could always look pretty...

remember when i cured cancer and was arrested for it because they said it was inhumane... well i dont either.. but i do remember when i was sick for a long time and now im really sick again...