Suddenly the day turns into night ( Read more... )

我很不舒服。Feeling unwell twice in 5 days. Too much intense pressure, I can't breathe, I feel nauseous and my chest feels tight. 

I lie to myself to make believe the lies of others.

Experienced some of the worst kinds of feelings today. Sigh, a deep sigh. 

I break down almost all the time at almost any possible place.
And I have to cry myself to sleep every night.

How do I become, stronger?

We're nothing after all.
The beautiful love you once said you'd show me, is now ugly.

Torn apart, words ran dry.
Totally helpless.

How did I land up where I am now? Deep thoughts, endless moments of pondering and mulling.

Me.
It was at first merely a feeling, followed by a choice that comes gradually with a decision, then the readiness to commit.

Us.
We were who we were because we enriched us with daily doses of care, patience, effort and communication.

有些人让我心里深处觉得很羡慕。让我看清有些事和感情是我也许一辈子也都不能拥有的。

我只想幸福一辈子，很难吗？

I have fallen down really hard this time.
Im not confident I can pick myself up and stand tall again.

What is so important over at the other side?