so maybe i am a bit of a skeptic, but i'll admit i had fun.

this is my NCTE contest submission. i figured it's time i share. The slow, silent draft of a quickly opened door. Two beats of silence. As if summoning will from deep within, the gruff voice softly calls, “You awake?” Silence ( Read more... )

i simply cannot compete with the social world. i want to be in it, but i can't get myself out of here. i have strange priorities for a mere child. i say child because i really am. i have absolute no direction, though i pretend i know precisely where i'm going. i pretend. that is all i ever do. to be perfectly honest, i am confused as hell by life. ( Read more... )

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i am relieved to be home. and that is all i will say about that.

i shall be in louisiana until tuesday for mi hermana's "wedding" of sorts. party.

we won state!
again.

and i got a haircut. good day-minus head cold. for sure.

STATE TOMORROW!

and i cannot motherfucking wait. we will dominate. [karma cap]

these are the kinds of things i think about during physics instead of...well...phsyics...i am becoming increasingly apathetic, and i find this mildly alarming. i am not apathetic toward my conquests. i am apathetic toward others. i have lived the vast majority of my life thus far with others' priorities and reactions in mind. i thought of pleasing ( Read more... )

i like to think that my need for competition is healthy. i haven't physically abused anyone yet.