as expected, clinic made for a long day. i am tired, yet i am still unable to sleep. sooner or later, ill catch up, probably this weekend ( Read more... )

make this better
better than before

i need to figure out what i need and what i want. these two very different concepts seem to superimpose over one another and make this so unclear...

what is easier?
on the heart?
on the mind?

im a little disoriented due to the tears that have been crashing on my cheeks these past couple of days. and my eye sight may never be the same when looking at pictures of you. your eyes are no longer sincere, but some how so cold. how did i not see it before? the complexity of your actions and reactions simply imply your indecisiveness and your ( Read more... )

i regret it all ( Read more... )

the thought process is somewhat absurd. thoughts floating around and finally being released to only come back smack me in the face and become more real than ever before. its been in my embrace once before and i let it slip away without reason, other than my safety net, my harness and my own defenses. i have been naked and more exposed than this, ( Read more... )

Run your car off the side of the road ( Read more... )

i have to say, the past couple of days have definately opened my eyes about the idea of relationships ( Read more... )

untitled ( Read more... )

so it has been quite some time since i have made time out of my day to update my thoughts, feelings and activities. currently, i am anxiously awaiting my departure to nevada. it was brought to my attention last night that my time here is incredibly short and i shouldnt be so anxious because i still have a few last minute things to tend to. three ( Read more... )

things arent feeling right anymore

soon theyll end

they have to

or ill break

i hate being controlled... i hate feeling helpless
and manipulated

i hate being threatened

i hate what im becoming

i always said that it wouldnt be like this

and now... it is