What the hell? I was just using a needle to shoot up that I found in the trash! In the fucking trash! It must have been in there for a while, all dirty and used up but I used it anyway, cuz I hate blowing shit up my nose or let's just say it doesn't give me the same effect as it did maybe a few months ago, anymore, so it would be a waste blowing ( Read more... )

I can't stop using. I'm being forced too but my mind is set on how to score money every single second. I'm going insane. I scored 30 bucks this morning, I don't have food or anything but I didn't think a second and spent everything on dope. 10 minutes later I was doing fine and smiling and contemplating how to get clean again. STUPID ( Read more... )

I ain't suicidal - I mean I guess now that I've been doing all kinds of drugs and been sticking needles up my arms for almost 3 years I think I definitely have some kind of "self-destructive gene" floating around in me somewhere but yeah, let's just say I ain't too happy with my life lately. I wish I could just press some kinda rewind button, or ( Read more... )

Watching Southpark on Comedy Central. Actually, it's the re-run from tonight's 10 p.m. episode and I guess I've watched that episodes a bazillion times now but it's cool. Actually, it get's worse once I sign onto "southpark.com" and watch it online again. It's a good show, cut me sum slack.. yo!.. uuh NOT!

Anyways, I'm not even sure what to write ( Read more... )

Hello world. Good bye world. At least for a couple days. Gotta lay low for a while. Thing is and I've mentioned this last night already, I HAVE to quit 'using' even though there are about 20 other ways I'd rather torture myself than going cold turkey. But I simply ain't got any other options left. Sure I could go see a doctor and have them put me ( Read more... )

I just watched the most amazing video on 'YouTube' called "You've got a friend" which is basically a drawing made of sand, done by some girl from the Ukraine. Really cool! I just wish I could draw like that, or do anything that cool with my hands for that matter. It's weird but I seem to have all these cool ideas stuck in my head but can't get them ( Read more... )

Man, I'm super bummed! I knew this was gonna happen to me one day, cuz I listen to way too many bands and way too much music all good day long. So I wrote this awesome, yet really simple riff on the guitar and came up with a really simple and basic melody to sing along to and turns out it's nothing but a flippin' rip off of Red Hot Chili Pepper's " ( Read more... )

Soo, I came across this site that has all kinds of emulators for old gaming consoles, especially one for the SMS 2. I remember playing it 24/7 when I was like 8 and still can't get enough of it. It's mad fun and it makes me feel like I'm 8 again, in a non weird-ish way I guess. I can't wait to go home on thursday now, for mom's birthday, and dig ( Read more... )

Woah, I just had a wake up call like WHOOP DEE DOO! Naw, seriously, I was watching the news and they were talking about how whole airports had to be shut down because of that sucker volcano and how there's not a single plane up in the air for days now. And then it struck me. Last night I woke up at round about 4.30 a.m. cuz I had to pee really bad ( Read more... )

You'd think that after a long and tiring day at work I'd pass out in 2.5 seconds but NOPE, still not gettin' aNy.. sleep. I hate or let's say I highly dislike how I've been up all nite for the past couple weeks now and then being a useless blob at work draggin' my feet around in circles, not knowing what I'm actually doing. Thank God, I ain't ( Read more... )