sure, the games are fun
but a hint of reality would be nice
for my sanity, not that i'm insane

$145 on my first night of craps. play the field, yo! =D

I see you and it starts ( Read more... )

so today has got to have been one of the best days of conversation i've had with the ladies, lol. it started off with a lot of back and forth flirting with one of my fellow courtesy clerks, mostly sarcastic comments (which is my specialty). i know we both had a lot of fun, and to end it right, i bought her some flowers on my way out and left them ( Read more... )

i've got darker shades than Dorian's Greys
underneath the underneath, the real me
habit driven by social acceptance
society submerging me in shame
i am a product of you, yet you reject me
... then where should i turn?

"No man, for any considerable period, can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered ( Read more... )

i knew it was a dream, but the pain was real. i felt it in my gut. i was having trouble breathing. every beat of my heart was heavy. my mind was rejecting the reality that sight was sending me. my heart had decided that it couldn't beat without you and death was it's only option....

i'm not afraid of who i am.
it feels good being true to myself.
the challenge is coping with the
consequences of being true to myself.
but i will not hide from or live in fear of
a future that i can not predict.
i will live for now.
and for now, i enjoy being me.
love me or leave me.
i am who i am.

hmmm... nothing really new. ERIC'S MARRIED! that's kindof cool. i'm totally happy for him... i've been in san clemente since monday and will be there til friday, so i guess that's a nice little vacation for me. though it is hard being around the same people day in and day out without many escapes (i think that's why i'm here in irvine right now). ( Read more... )