Wes is graduating from high school. Now i feel really old. It feels like yesterday that it was my graduation day. I can't believe its been 2 years. Other than that i don't have anything to say. Maybe i'll see some of you at graduation tonight. And im home for the summer if anyone wants to do anything.

There comes a time when you realize that your entire sence of self is completly dependent on other people. That you are not able to satify your emotional need internally.  I don't really think I know how to be happy.  My only sence of happyness comes from other people. This leads to big problems because I have a really hard time getting close to ( Read more... )

Well im back home for a while. Till Feb 5 to be exact. That is a long time to be here. Well I want to hang out with everyone. Other than that nothing is really new. Im just trying to get settled at home and relearn how to deal with my mom. Less than a week till Christmas. I doesn't feel that soon but I also have yet to get anything for anyone.

Going home. Man am I ready to get away from this place.

Hey, its been a whlie without posting. I've been really busy with classes lately. I've been going through a hard time. Im having a great time here. I've made so many great new friends and still see my old friends sometimes. I've cut back on partiing by a lot. But just something doesn't feel right. I feel lost. Like after I leave here, I have no ( Read more... )

I found out last night around 1am that my grandfather is being rushed into surgery today because his artery in his heart is 90% cloged. I always tell myself that if you loose anyone close to me that I am just going to celebrate the good memories. Its easy to say that until it gets close to happening. I don't know what I would do witout either of my ( Read more... )

I've started to write a plot outline for a script im trying to write. I don't want to give anything away yet so Im not going to say what it is about. But trying to keep the plot moving is really difficult. With only 15-30 min to work with, i can't have the film die. Everything has to be there that is important and nothing else. But I just wanted to ( Read more... )

So, I leave in a less than 15 hours. It marks the end of the worst summer ever. I was depressed within 24 hours of being home and it only got worse every day. My anxiety came back worse than ever. And i want to appologize to all my friends out there for pushing away. This whole summer, i've only seen Ruth and Pete. And if you read this Pete, Im ( Read more... )

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I guess I should start posting more. And not really so you all out there can read about my boring life and my repetative struggles but just so I can get shit off of my chest. My doctor has me running daily and I have really started to enjoy it. Its only been 4 days of it but its like I look forward to my nightly run. It is great therapy. I can just ( Read more... )