i haven't updated it so long. so much has changed. i love gary so much, we've been together since i've last updated like three months ago ( Read more... )

so last night was odd. i went to work where both mary and gary (their names sound so lame together) were working. well instead of acting awkward, i talked to mary forever and made gary so nervous cause we were having all these intense conversations, mostly about her boyfriend in jail. but anyway, i find out all these fucked up things about her, ( Read more... )

See i dont, know why, i liked you so much ( Read more... )

i ate half a can of tuna fish and i had a very small bowl of basic four with a half a cup of skim milk already and it's only 10:30 am. i just took a stackers though. so much for no carbs, oh well ( Read more... )

so randy tells me today at work that gary had said to him "why settle for mcdonalds (me) when you can have a four star resturant (mary)". fuck gary. i never want to eat again. at least it's another inspiration. but i fucking hate him right now. ugh!! at least today i did well. i had ( Read more... )

blahh i was at shane's house tonight, what a mistake. we had sex and it was gross. i came home and took a shower and scrubbed. i don't like him at all..i wonder what happened that caused me to be so disgusted by him all of a sudden. it's probably my obsession with gary ( Read more... )

today i ate two pieces of wheat bread, diet dr. pepper, and a tangerine. while i was reading before dinner i kept thinking about how i wanted to stop at the gas station on the way to shane's house tonight to buy cookies. for some reason i was craving them so bad. i'm not going to. i would have if i was able to make myself throw up after dinner ( Read more... )