uh. got a million things on my mind. taken care of about 3. lol. so, here I am at a party for about 5 minutes. surrounded by people. yet, completely alone. feeling a lot like that lately. alone. and half the time i chose to be, the other half, desperate for a friend. kinda serial. being at a place with tons of people and feeling isolated. rare ( Read more... )

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself ( Read more... )

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY ( Read more... )

So, this has been on my heart a lot lately. like the past couple months. there is a girl at my work that had said some not nice things about the music minister at my church and I kept my cool and kindly asked her not to talk about him like that and so on. so, yesterday, out of nowhere she talks crap again and I could not hold it because I'm tired ( Read more... )

confused. made up with a friend, yet nothing has changed yet(partly my fault). had another friend express to me that she wanted to leave and never come back and close off all her friendships. mind you, right to my face, and it didn't even seem to phase her. am I supposed to be like, alright, bye. had my ex-boyfriend come over last night to talk. ( Read more... )

wow. just about 2 hours ago, my "bf" and I broke up. my first boyfriend, second "kiss." that's pretty pathetic- 3 1/2 weeks. lol. I'm actually kind of relieved. weird enough. I knew what I was doing. making a mistake. I'm pretty pathetic - stooping that low. lowering my standards that much. compromising. learned that. not to do it that is. one ( Read more... )

sitting here ( Read more... )

I just realized after Mal already finalized my lj that it's How now brown cow..lol, so that's great!It sounds like the cow is on top of me and I'm screaming OW!NOW BROWN COW. Anyway..I'm feeling really creative..like I want to draw or create something - decorate my room or just like cover a wall in a huge mural. I dunno, but I'm exhausted, so til ( Read more... )

what would you do if i ( Read more... )

So, I told myself I wouldn't ever start this "live journal" crap...but I wanted to read Malorie's entries because they are depressing, funny, and cheesy. lol...and she said I had to sign on...so, it'll be a while before I write again. ;o)