!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!

It's been almost a week, no, over a week since we've spoken since everything happened between her, myself, and Kris. Did I make the effort ever, to talk to her? No. I wasn't going to go out of my way, to speak with her after every rude and harsh thing she has had to say to me and about Kris.

I'm upstairs napping, and ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
So I was sleeping last night, of course, and it was (to me) a pretty bad nightmare. I've been told adults cannot have nightmares, well, I'm here to tell you I can have nightmares. This one wasn't a nightmare, but because of what happened - it was definitely a nightmare.

Kris joined the army, as he is planning to do. ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
Surprisingly, he followed me upstairs not long after I headed up myself. Usually, when I head to bed, it's about an hour or so before he follows me, but it was about ten minutes or so before he was climbing into bed beside me. We started talking, and he tried to give me a kiss. I tried to pull away and he was ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!

I guess John was in town tonight, because I woke up from an afternoon nap with Isabella to find John's second oldest child, youngest son, Adam, in my living room with my brother. Did I mind that he was there? No, not really. I don't know how much those kids know about what's going on between Mom and me - but I am ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
Isabella has not used the potty in quite some time, and we're not quite sure why. She has her sticker chart up on the wall, so everyone can see. She has two under cleaned up. She tends to leave her blocks everywhere, so when we ask her to pick them up, and only have to ask once, we give her a sticker. Or if she ( Read more... )

 !! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
I know that it's my own fault that people won't leave me alone, but I wish people knew when to just stop asking questions. Yes, I told people about what was going on, and yes, I didn't tell them the entire story - so now they are riding my ass like I'm some kind of pack mule and it's driving me crazy. Can they not ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
It seems as though every day that goes by, Kris and I are slowly becoming closer all over again. Last night was another night that we spent together in a very intimate way - and he made me laugh like I've never laughed before. We were talking about intimacy and getting physical and he says to me "Honestly - to a guy ( Read more... )

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I've decided that it's wrong to deny my mother a Christmas gift. Or, at least, I thought it would be wrong - but then I remembered everything that she ever did to me - but this is what I was going to put with her Christmas gift. A letter. It may sound mean, but after everything that she has put me through - this is ( Read more... )

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This sick feeling has not left my stomach since we "worked" things out. At least, I believe that is what we are doing - because if not - then he is just using me. But, after everything he has said - I am almost certain that we are working things out. Or have worked things out. But I still had that sick feeling in my ( Read more... )

 !! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
I don't know why, but I decided to start writing Karissa a letter. For some reason, writing to her, getting everything out - seemed to be a logical choice. All I do is talk circles around the poor girl, and I guess that I figured writing her would help me and maybe help her. At the same time, there was that fear of ( Read more... )