!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
Appearance:
I am short:   TRUE
I have many scars:   TRUE
I tan easily:   TRUE
I burn easily:   TRUE
I wish my hair was a different color:   TRUE
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color:   TRUE
I wear glasses or contacts:   TRUE
I have 4 or more piercings:   TRUE
I miss someone right now:   TRUE

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!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
So, am I a little peeved right now? You bet your ass I'm just slightly peeved right now. Been wondering where he's been all day, because it's Sunday and his weekend to work and he never came home right after work. Or call. He usually does one or the other. If he's going out, he usually calls, or he comes straight ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
So I don't know what's going on, but he isn't home yet and I am beginning to really worry. It is his weekend to work, of course. Which means he gets up at about six in the morning, and comes home at about one or two in the afternoon. Well, it's now way past three in the afternoon and I've not heard a single thing - ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
I really began to think about the conversation that I had with my mother last night, and I came to the unfortunate realization that my father does care - but not about me, or his grandkids. He cares about money. Always has. Always will.

For so long, I've been giving him the benefit of the doubt. Saying that it was my ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
Was it right for me to "out" her in front of everyone like that? No, probably not. Did I care? No, not really. Why didn't I care? Because she brought it up, and had the nerve to say to me that she had said all of what she had said because of the e-mail I wrote to Dad about how she spent all the Christmas money and ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
I think we are beginning to slip again, Kris and me. For a while after the truth came out, it was a bit rocky. Then it started to level off. Now, it's like we are back into the same old routine - and it feels like we're losing grip on our relationship. It's back to him being crabby, me now being unhappy because I'm ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!

I've said this time and time again, but it's true - music is my hero. It not only gets me through my days and nights, and it not only calms me, but it helps me to understand my life - and I feel like I can relate. Makes me feel like someone else out there in the world actually knows how I'm feeling, and put it all ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
Do I not deserve happiness? Do I not deserve to laugh, to smile? Do I only deserve to be miserable for the rest of my life, and feel nothing but misery and pain? Are the people who have come through my life right, that I deserve nothing good - and only bad? Because I'm not pretty enough? Or smart enough? Or "cool" ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
Tonight was another dinner with family, but it wasn't the whole shabang with everybody there from one side of the family. It was just Kris, myself, Isabella and his family - Mom, Dave, Kayla and Kodie. It was good. We had the choice of steak or chicken because she made both and hash browns. It was really good.

Cannot ( Read more... )

!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
Dave had called a couple days ago and asked if we were going to go with them to Deloraine, to have dinner with his family. The last time I had dinner with his family, was, two years ago. Because Isabella was only a few months old and they were all "oohing" and "aahing" her while she played on the floor. So was I ( Read more... )