I met a new guy, ray. ... Its one of allens good friends. Hes a little older than i would like. But im not looking for anything serious right now so i dont mind much. Hes a really nice guy, a great guy.. I just had to open my mouth and tell him i wasnt ready for the things he might be ready for. Im still madly inlove with jon. If Jon ( Read more... )

Im in a pretty calm mood. Im listening to some incubus and this new song. I miss when things were easy, and everything wasnt blended together. I miss not worrying if i would be okay, or if other people were okay. Everything was so easy and all i had to worry about was myself. I didnt have to worry about if the person i loved would stay with me in ( Read more... )

                Christmas was spent at the aunts in bedford. My friend ashlee had a tough christmas morning so i figured i might as well invite her so both of our days wouldnt be ruined. We drove down in her car.... And we got lost... about 3 different times. Why is bedford so hard to get around, honestly? We had an alright time. It was kinda funny ( Read more... )

Things are getting better. Im getting stronger. Things dont bother me as much and i can suddenly tell that i am almost back to my old self. Not that i think i need to change... But there were some things that bothered me that shouldnt have. And it was my fault because i let them bother me. No longer am i going to be so soft. Thats not me. Im not ( Read more... )

Why did it take me so long to realize this.

I use to think i was such a good catch. Not being conceited, but i really was such a sweet girl who would do anything to cheer the people i love up. I have changed a lot. Being rejected sucks. But thinking you have something when you really dont... that is something tough. And that is something that ( Read more... )

When do you know when your making the right decision.... ?

He is packing tomorrow and moving out on sunday. What will i do? I need a hobby... Or a new friend that has all the time in the world for me. And fast!

And im left with tears in my eyes once again. I think i know what i have to do. Its not going to be easy... But something has to be done so im not miserable the rest of my life. This is going to hurt

Is it better to have a boyfriend who doesnt appreciate you... Or no boyfriend at all?

The question of my life.

My mum got back from the hospital yesterday. Shes doing fine now. It sucked so bad to see her in the hospital all fucked up off morphine. Im glad chrissy and ashlee went with me though, that really helped it settle in. They wont know if its cancerous until maybe sunday. I hope she never returns to the hospital ever again. EVER

I'm actually sitting ( Read more... )

If you look inside a girls heart, you'd see how much she really cries. You'll find secrets hidden, best friends and lies, but what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothings right and everything is wrong ( Read more... )