In 5 days it will be my birthday. I will be older, hopefully I can again put this situation behind me. How much I let one person damage my life, enough that I am physically sick and a depressed individual with new people. It was never in my list of first impressions to look depressed, to be shy is one thing, but not to be a depressed one. I ( Read more... )

I wonder if people see me as down to earth. Down to earth is a compliment, I'd like someone to describe me to someone else as, "yeah, she's down to earth," when I'm not around. That can only mean good things ( Read more... )

when did i get so weak, how did i let myself slide, i knew this wold happen, how immature ( Read more... )

I've been drawing. I need a scanner.
I need a better image server that doesn't restrict and constrict and choke my doodles


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I went to Animal Collective last night. Doing so, almost made me single ( Read more... )

It has been a while. I am ashamed of myself so I am ashamed to come to terms with that by writing in this journal. The mirror of myself. Instead I rather scan the drawlings I've done. I am doing one for a friend now who helped me out a lot. He said he wants to put it in his CD booklet. I am going to minor in Art. I love engineering but I ( Read more... )

The girl on the fourth floor fakes orgasms soooo loud.

Weeks go by quickly, months slowly. It's only October ( Read more... )

i have ten minutes until calculus. like it even matters. being there doesn't change my misunderstanding of the lessons. i can sit there and be intent on learning and be focused on vladmir, my professor, and nothing will change. i still will go home to homework that makes no sense. it's not fair to teach the class like it's a review when it wasn't a ( Read more... )

My fish, his name name, is Waylon Sprinkles. He's lived with me for over a week, one more week and I can prove all that negativity wrong. He keeps me sane. I hate my roommate. I hate her accent. Her lack of care for anyone other than her self. Leaving half eaten cheesecake uncovered in the freezer for weeks. Two stinky uncovered eggrolls in ( Read more... )