Who doesn't have a cell phone now-a-days?!!? Like seriously. OMG. AHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm sitting underneath the open window listening to the Republic One CD for the one thousand eight hundred and fifty sixth time. The gusty cold Florida winter is dispersing through the screen and hitting my face from every angle. Im bundled in a warm UCF hoodie and cowboy boxers without socks. Over the horrible screeching of my roommate's rendition ( Read more... )

The next two days following the Perkins showdown, I wore that gray Bishp Kenny Wrestling shirt. I've never felt so close to my past. I've never mourned with an object that in itself brought so much pain and anger yet so much comfort. I denied his love because I loved someone else. I now know what those nights are when he stayed up all night ( Read more... )

You know that fork? The one in the bottom of the dishwasher that fell out of silverware holder but you're too lazy to reach in and pick it out so you leave it there until it has gone through 3 cycles? I feel like that fork looking up at the knife who is cheating with spoon. lying helpless on the bottom doing what I am suppose to be doing but ( Read more... )

i think it's ironic that as I sit down to write about the early coming of Christmas, Scrubs is playing their Christmas reruns. As i whistle along to "we wish you a merry christmas" watching the credits roll, I think, why can't Christmas come  in September? Why do I have to be so old fashion and think that baking santa cookies and ordering gifts ( Read more... )

I try not to judge

but

Show me a guy who wants to get married and has a good job and its like snoozeville for me

but if you know a 35 year old who still lives at home with his mom and still thinks his band can make it
 tell me where to meet him so I can buy him dinner

a person doesn't have to be perfect to be exactly what you need

I had that conversation new couples shouldn't have. The one about who you slept with in the past. The one that makes your stomach knott up and turn your acid toxic when you hear that the one you love slept with a girl you are close with and still seem as a threat. That conversation. I feel like its an evil neccessity. But why? why ruin something so ( Read more... )

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

Well, I got to this point. I'm 20. I got someone who loves me. I got a family who claims me. I got a job that pays me. I got friends who care about me.

I feel as though I let everyone down. I can't fix my future. I fucked up my future at 20.

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