fuck all ( Read more... )

i don't trust anyone anymore. and i find myself pulling away from people i used to confide in and have faith in. i don't want to be like this, but i'm almost finding that i'm happier that way.
i don't want to get left behind again.

i hate maybe ( Read more... )

i think today is quite possibly the first day i've realized that i do not have control over everything. i can't make my friends stop hurting, i can't make myself undepressed, i can't make him come back ( Read more... )

Okay. So I decided I need to evaluate my music selections. Because my emo just was getting to be too much for me, and I wanted something new. So first I tried like.. alt./heavy stuff.. like 3 doors down and staind and nickelback and breaking benjamin. You know, blitz stuff. But that's just got memories associated and it's really just as sad as the ( Read more... )

is it possible to surgically remove thoughts?

okay. april starts saturday. here is the game plan ( Read more... )

he won. i'm the one who looks like the idiot. the romantic. the naive.
i had this conception of myself and it's totally shattered now.
i thought i was stronger than this.
i'm supposed to be saving the world, and i just keep thinking about my love life.
i was wrong, i failed, and i wasn't worth the effort.
i give up.

I'm so terrified. Today has been terrible and all I want to do is cry. Life is getting so real. I've lost it ( Read more... )

T- You are one of the best in bed ( Read more... )