Ok , the phone rings my boss answers , and its Dr . Brem's office on the other end. I think I sucked in all of the surrounding air around me. Still kinda holding my breath. Ive had a little bit of time this afternoon to absorb evrything. I think Im ok with the news. The results of the EEG confirmed some nerve impulsivity from the tumor on pressure ( Read more... )

Well here it is the day I have both been anxiously and nervously waiting for.I have to be at Moffitt at noon for my PET and my Bone Scan (crossing fingers ) Hoping and praying I have no reaction to the isotope injections .A part of me wants to cancel the testing procedure until another day. But a large part wants it over with. I am also going to ( Read more... )

This whole day has been one of those WTF days. The kind that you wonder if I didnt wakeup this morning would this day have been as fucked up as it it is?? I think it started late last night with my conversation with INNY. Strange strange strange ,but then again what isnt anymore. Left me feeling a little like WTF ?!!Not again. Made me question ( Read more... )

well , what a surprise in his household last night, and even bigger one today. Kath got an email from onecertain coaster , that he was coming through town , and wnted to spend some time with her. So she got up this morning thinking she was going to see him in Tampa at the airport for a few hours. Low and behold , he is here until tomorrow at 1 . ( Read more... )

aFTER THE LAST POSTLETS SEE, i WENT BACK to work . As I walked in i was told goback home . I know I felt like shit , seems I looked like it too. So I came back home. I ended up sleeping off and on for 8 hours. Thingis Im still physically exhausted!!! I guess its just all getting to me. My body knows its sick , I just dont take time to rest like I ( Read more... )

Well , I came home from work at lunch time because i just felt like SHIT! Everything hurts today. Not really sure why. I laid down for about half an hour , then was afraid I wouldnt wake myself up to go back. Its friday and I really have o desire to go back. In reality I am finding it very hard to go in , let alone back. I get so frustrated with ( Read more... )

Just another manic Monday.... not even a fun day .... what a scum day ....wish it were a sunday ... How about a RUNDAYYYYYY ( Read more... )

Ok , here we are on the Sunday after Thanksgiving. This has been an incredible last few days. The range of emotions , and activities have been untangible ( Read more... )

Here it is Sunday morning , and I feel like I have just toured the most devasted regions of our world. Physically , mentally and spiritualy. But there is also that part of me that sighs that huge relief filled sigh that I am home. The poison part is over!!! Now to the part of life that is the real challange......doing instead of dreaming ( Read more... )

Ok a little bit of a late start on this end of the cycle day. But it was well worth it ... I did stop by school and spent some time with all my lil munchkins .. I MISSED THEM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!! I had to wear my face mask , scared a few of the kids , but the others were ok with it. They rememebred me talking to them about why I have to ( Read more... )