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[p1ague]

There are so many things that I don't do simply because I am afraid to practice them. "Practice makes perfect", rather than "is", is something that is somehow too.. [complex] to make it past my mind. Everything I do, or should do, suffers for it, save those few things I actually concentrate my attention on. It is so pathetically evident, in

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the sickness

[lulumcdink]

i think i got what you have. the remedy is to work on making the impossible reality. duh.
and remember, you need a job so that you'll have something to live off when you're too old to go to the bathroom, and too apathetic to kill yourself. or.... you could do it for SOMEONE ELSE (no, not that? what is that???)
ah, my autistic brothers and sisters, i feel for us.

Re: the sickness

[p1ague]

Do what for someone else? I almost never try to do anything except for someone else, which makes my isolation all the more difficult. But it's the only way to even start to figure out "who I am" and what *I* might want. So in a sense I suppose I'm partly the antithesis of what you're thinking. One of my greatest troubles has always been that I so need other people to channel my energy through: deep seated codependence. Combined with antisocial/isolationist tendencies, it's a killer cocktail.

I still love life.. "my reason for living is living" was sorta the point, maybe in a more generalized sense.

Re: the sickness

[lulumcdink]

hmmm. i think i like people as my audience. that book i read has got me thinking int he wrong ways, it's makig me crazy! really, i like people, they're all different with interesting lives.

Re: the sickness

[p1ague]

Do what for someone else? I almost never try to do anything except for someone else, which makes my isolation all the more difficult. But it's the only way to even start to figure out "who I am" and what *I* might want. So in a sense I suppose I'm partly the antithesis of what you're thinking. One of my greatest troubles has always been that I so need other people to channel my energy through: deep seated codependence. Combined with antisocial/isolationist tendencies, it's a killer cocktail.

I still love life.. "my reason for living is living" was sorta the point, maybe in a more generalized sense.