I never should have revealed certain things to the spouse. I wish I could take that day back all those years ago. I should have been more careful and I'd still be able to just hide from everyone and though I would not be free to just be me, at least I wouldn't feel like this. Besides, I will never be free to just be me, that's just not possible for ( Read more... )

So, I feel like I'm wandering aimlessly. I'm not, but it feels like that. The end of this path I started over two years ago is quickly approaching. It seems the last leg of this trek has taken me into a deep valley boardered on either side by tall, sheer walls and filled with a fog that gets thicker with every step forward. I can't hardly see my ( Read more... )

So, I thought about it more. I think I have an idea as to why Portishead and similar music never was even on my radar. Back then I wanted my music hard and fast, the harder and faster the better. I *needed* it to just blow my mind away, to crush all of my thoughts and feelings so that, for a few moments at least, I didn't have to think or feel ( Read more... )

In idle chat with a friend online the subject of why certain things are a turn on came up. Which lead me down a familiar path of thoughts. But I found a short and simple way to sum up two aspects of my sexuality that I liked and I don't want to forget *how* I said it ( Read more... )

I have had two songs on repeat for most of the last few weeks. I love the way the first one sounds so fluid. I mean, it just goes together so well. For the second one, not only does the sound fit together so well, but I also love the lyrics.

K

Portishead - Wandering StarPlease could you stay awhile to share my grief ( Read more... )

I don't remember how many people know this, but for over the last month I've been walking home from work, about a 3 1/2 mile trek. I have gotten much flack from the people I work with. Only one of them actually thought it was a good idea, a handful have flat out made fun of me, most seem very confused and give me a "you must be insane," look. But ( Read more... )

It dawned on me just a few minutes ago how most people don't seem to understand how much my happy is tied to my trust. No trust = no happy. Lots of trust = lots of happy. This is something that I've understood about myself for a very long time. I suppose it is something that I don't usually express. Some people seem to be confused by this though. ( Read more... )

I'm at a loss for words really. To be honest, I usually am when it comes to expressing the things floating around inside me ( Read more... )

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Truly,
K

I'm not really here right now. I'm not really anywhere right now to be honest. I'm buried deep inside my head, have been for a while now actually, or at least it feels like it's been a while, I don't know. Time is not being consistent for me. One moment seems to drag on for days while other moments seem to just zoom past without stopping. I'm just ( Read more... )