He said...

[pachookie]

I can't fucking believe he said I am like HER!! FUCK!!! I am NOTHING like her. Why would he say that? To be hurtful? To piss me off? To prove that he is in control? Why do I do this every time? He has his life, I have mine.... why do I think we could have a life together? ANY life. I'm not talking marriage here, just some semblance of a

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WOW!!

[viccygrl420]

Are you sure you aren't living my life for me??? OMG!! Everything sounds sooo freaking similar...I try to make *He has his life...I have mine* my mantra too, but it fails...I always start to feel differently...except this time..it's a little different...I just have to keep telling myself what to feel and not get carried away with it...if that's possible! HA!

Re: WOW!!

[pachookie]

It does fail, doesn't it. It's almost like the more times you tell yourself that, the more it doesn't work. Vicious cycle and all that. I get scared and then lash out and then wish I hadn't done it then get scared again. Yeah, it will be my life, his life until the feelings become too strong.... then it's back to the cycle...

[teardropfire]

I'm not even asking to be "first" in his life, but somewhere in the top 5 would be nice.

Word. That sucks.

[pachookie]

Hey, thanks.