And again and again

[pachookie]

So I just continue to put myself in these situations. Why can't I just learn that being around him just hurts more and more each time? Shouldn't I feel good to be with him? I mean fuck!!! He's all I think about. When I'm not with him I'm thinking about being with him. I am torn between wanting to make him happy and wanting to tell him to fuck

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[viewofeternity]

That 'feeling' is love, care and compassion. It just seems you are unfortunate, and chose a nonreciprocating partner. You have my sympathy hon, I know how life can be sometimes.

[pachookie]

Thank you, thank you, thank you. Sometimes all you need is just to have someone's sympathy who understands. So please know that you brightened my day.

[moltomenti]

Oh, I know that feeling. Miserable. Only (not best) suggestion I have - get out first.

[pachookie]

I know that is what I SHOULD do, it's just not what I WANT to do. Isn't that the crux of most problems? We want what is not good for us most of the time?

[moltomenti]

We do. Why is that, I wonder?

[pachookie]

I have no idea. If you come up with something will you please enlighten me? It must be some learned behaviour. I am driven to do wrong...

[valium_lover]

First things first...there is a pill that does this. Actually a few of them. I know, I know, you just don't have them right this second. Neither do I. Boo hoo.

Well, what a day! I had to actually fire a dude today. I'll write about it in my own journal I guess. haha

I wish I could help you, but I have the EXACT SAME PROBLEM!!!

IT SUCKS!!!!

[pachookie]

I'll check your journal for the details about your day. I've got to get myself some of those pills...

Yes it does SUCK!! I can't stand it. But it continues just the same.