To realize the things that are unknown...deception and shielding are different things but both are to be despised

Well folks i think it's decided. I am through with this new me...i am sick of it. It's not pleasant it's not enjoyable and it's crap. Yeah it's a better person and all but i am sick of playing the bigger man...i am ready for who i was. Yeah past me was fucked up and had little of a real mind but it's better than present circumstances i think. And i ( Read more... )

I hate the unknown. I think one reason that me and thomas have stayed friends so long is b/c we dont keep secrets...well basically. I mean everyone has some sort of a secret from someone but between the two of us it usually comes out in a melo-dramatic fight and then all is well again in the kingdom. It's not always like that with everyone else ( Read more... )

So here i am again, in my house, looking at the wall, realizing...IT! And we're not talking about the scary son-a-mmh-bitch clown people...we're talking full out, call the artillery, there's no escape IT ( Read more... )

Sis Shindoll died this evening. She was amazing. I really missed her when we moved. She was like my grandmother after mine died. Well i dont know if the relationship was the same on the other end but thats how i saw it. Not that i saw her as much as i wanted to or should have...but emotions are strong and carry across time and location ( Read more... )

So lots happened today...in fact so much that i dont even want to write the things down. Events are in the past they can do nothing for us, but the revelations that we take from them and continue with are all that matter. I realized that i am a bitch. Thats pretty much how it should be stated. I became someone that i really didnt even know and it ( Read more... )

Today was deemed Thomas and I day because i have really seen him in awhile and we were gonna spend the day together to make up for lost time and catch up. Well I was getting some grief from him b/c i had planned on spending from like 10am to 10pm with him and he i guess wanted to hang out even past the 10pm and such, which is cool but i had plans ( Read more... )

My garbage disposal fell. It just fell down...it's laying under the sink, which means i cant use my sink cause the water just runs through the pipes onto the floor. How the heck does something like that just fall down and go boom? Also i have been paranoid all day that someone was knocking on my door...i am hearing things. And i was going to ( Read more... )

Purple mountains of majesty just dont cut it anymore ( Read more... )

So there's this person from my past that i really respect. Someone that i kinda secretly looked up to when i knew them...and i asked them a question. I asked, how can we truly change our perspective? How do we really see something differently? This was his response ( Read more... )