Last Night a fever struck me fierce...I was tossing and turning a crying in my sleep. I wasn't even so much in a sleep as trapped in that land of semiconscience havok. My body was overheating to the point of system shut down. An anxiety attack in my sleep. What caused this? They just happen as a side effect of my depression and my medication. I ( Read more... )

I lay in bed. So cold. So lifeless. The only way I feel that I still exist is in the prickling the cold does to my skin. Tears well up in my eyes, but refuse to retreat. What if I shut my eyes never to open them again. What if I let the pain consume me. What is the use of fighting anymore ( Read more... )

Last night I found my self wrapped in the arms of love. His warm breath on my face, staring into those beautiful brown eyes it was as if we had never been apart. His soft kisses send shivers all throughout my body.I feel warmth in my heart. If only last night could have lasted forever.

Trust is something so hard to build, yet so easy to destroy. After years of my heart being broken I could no longer find it in myself to fully trust anyone. Every time I began to open up my poor heart would get trampled on. There were even those wonderful souls who did nothing to betray me, but I just didn't know how to trust them back. When I was ( Read more... )

"Each of us 'passes' in the 'normal' world by cutting off parts of ourselves. The more restrictive the keyhole through which each of us must fit, the more we each bleed"(Holub ( Read more... )

Earlier in the semester, Nicole wrote a piece on me for her journalism class.(she got an "A") It bared the title above and reading my own story inspired me to submit my story to a narrative magazine. Over a 5-6 week process to finish it. Writing about it is just liek living it all over again. It wasn't a polished piece, but raw just like the ( Read more... )

Joseph Dominick Kata was without a doubt my first love and first "real" relationship. My family loved him, but we were both so young and naive. We were also doing the distance thing and fighting a massive phone bill. I constantly broke his heart and he constantly lied to me. It ended brutally and bitterly.(8 months ( Read more... )

Got back at 4 in the morning from St.Peters hospital after much testing and blood taking. I had been having severe stomach pains for the last week and they have it narrowed down to most likely an ovarian cist. Yeah me! Joe insisted I go to the hospital and stayed with me all night. The nurse told me that while I was sleeping Joe was watching me ( Read more... )

How do you measure the moments of your life? Some measure it by goals achieved or friends attained or miles traveled. I measure it in love, how often one is able to express and see expressions of love. This could be the love between parent and child, friend to friend, or lover to lover. Sometimes it is expressed in a glance. Others can be expressed ( Read more... )

"At the mall, LB is a fucking whore that makes me sick and I hope that faggean looking guy does hurt her." I had to hear someone I care about talk about what a nice guy she thinks he is after he wrote that on his away message about me. They say "sticks and stones will break your bones, but words will never hurt you." It just isn't true. I don't ( Read more... )