Someone once told me that your life is like a brick wall. You have to work to maintain it and constantly build upon it. When something goes wrong pieces or whole bricks may fall apart. If too many bricks fall out then the whole wall will tumble down. Every day we are faced with challenges and mishaps, they key is in how we handle them. Today ( Read more... )

I think the reason that I haven't written in days was because I could not express what I was feeling in words. That is a complete shock because words have been my most frequent form of expression, that is the written word. Naoko drew a picture of me the other day, like an anime version of me. When there is a portrait done, it is mainly an ( Read more... )

In a movie I recently saw it was said "Good things take time. Great things happen all at once." I did some last minute cramming for my sex midterm and felt very confident in my way in and out. As a spur of the moment I decided to head over to Indian Quad after the exam and visit my freshies:Bovey and Ray. For others who don't know I am taking up a ( Read more... )

I want to memorize your face with my finger tips ( Read more... )

Wanting to run away from myself ( Read more... )

I keep throwing myself at unwilling males...there was Ray who would rather do HW or Chris who wanted the girl in his pledge class or whomever. There is this guy in my 8:15 AM Reading Literature class named Jarod. He first caught my eye when he did a reading in class: he had a very powerful voice and read with such emotional conviction. He always ( Read more... )

So for a few days I have had a pile of clean laundry lying around in a net bag. All I have to do is sort and put it away, but I just keep avoiding it. This could probably reflect alot in my life: Scott, Carol Stenger, and school work. Scott and I haven't spoken for over 3 weeks since our confrontation by the archway. We passed one another the other ( Read more... )

This weekend was "Homecoming Weekend", which ironically means you stay at school and your "home"(parents) come to visit you. There is also the grand tradition of them buying you stuff: I got food at BJ's and a new denim skirt cause we all know that I need more clothes. Last night was about to be my second time in my entire 3 years here clubbing. I ( Read more... )

I have felt lost, I want to be me again. I want to feel whole again. I want this overwhelming pain to stop. I no longer have a desire to do school work or get involved like I used to. My family is coming up for the day tomorrow, it will feel real good to see them. Last night I cried for a 1/2 hour with Mark and he told me how he admired how strong ( Read more... )

Out of the fifty plus pairs of shoes I have, I have yet to get a pair of ruby red slippers. I could just click the heels and go home...but where is home? Everyone has found a place, but me. I just feel so lonely all the time and nobody can understand that. I have friends, I have family, but I am consumed with loneliness. I don't want to bring ( Read more... )