I step up ( Read more... )

Well...i am back...going to be changing my journal though might see all the previous entries go bye bye

Every End must come
No one to fight it coming
No one left to stave it away

Cold embrace of numbness
Soft bite of a long sleep
Light onset of cold arms

Sleep, I welcome
Cold, I welcome
Numbness, I welcome

They mother accpet me into her embrace
Thy wayward son is coming home

Its on this day, all people not just americans, should take time remember the people that fought and died in world war 2, and the people that were worthless killed in one mans attempt to 'purify' the world. Also take a moment to think, that he didn't start off big, he had an idea that caught on. Even the most ludicrious ideas can come to the head ( Read more... )

Feeling lonely...like there isn't much that matters really.. No one can see me as anything but weird lately. Makes me wonder what hope there is..no matter how hard I tried no one will see me as anything but weird.....:-(

I am in Ok, at Tinker. Can't really say more then that. Anyway...i am starting to miss some of my old friends...maybe finally getting her made the fact that I left some friends behind in cali hit home. Met a couple of friends from another site on my way to chicago and I think they were pretty cool...hmm not much more to say then that. will try ( Read more... )

I am home....I ended up doing some things I didn't think I would and i haven't even been back five days yet lol. I realized something, when ever I feel emotional regrets the first thing i do is go out and screw someone. I don't know why that is...probably compensating for emotional shortcomings with physical stimulus...or maybe something all ( Read more... )

I leave in two weeks. Can't wait to go and visit some of the people i have been talking to for years. Most of them seem anxious to meet me...others don't seem to care lol. Well fuck em all, I am going to have fun and if anyone on my trip tries to drag me down they can be penciled off ( Read more... )

People don't understand me. Some think they do but usualy don't in the end. One of the things most often mistaking about me is that I don't care, or conversly that I am over attached/emotional. I have a problem with not believing or assuming people think highly of me. It comes from a lifetime of verbal abuse from supposed family and friends ( Read more... )

Don't really know what ups today...having slow month. I really feel my big road trip falling a part :(