Its kinda sad to see Michael jackson go. In an odd way he influenced me in my childhood and was an inspiration to do better things in the world.

 fuck iran....

Playing Smooth Jazz in the Laboratory is kinda like mortar fire in the Gaza Strip... It sucks at first but after awhile you learn to tune it out....

Awhile back I went to the "doors to recovery" meeting in Rochester and I won a Limited Edition Basic Text in a raffle. It was someones anniversary and they had bought it for the group. In group conscience we decided to raffle it off and the proceeds would go to the area or whatever. Low and behold they drew my name from he hat and I won a brand new ( Read more... )

I feel unfufilled, but then again I guess that is the way that I am wired. Sometimes I think that I am just making something out of nothing, or maybe this is my way of dealing with my boredom. Its this stupid middle ground area that I just dont get in my life. Like there is going to be a "good" dose of anything that will satisfy me. Masterbation, ( Read more... )

I just ate an Otis Spunkmeyer Muffin. Im not too happy with myself right now. Today has been poopy, and its only 8:32.

Last night I dreamt of being a chef,  and I really liked it. I want to be cooking, yet, at the same point and time, I want to make the money and have the security that I have here. Its a tough call but eventually I must move on.

I have a feeling that today is going to be a very slow day at work. Feldman none. Sills 1/2 none.

So I had a phone interview with MCG yesterday and Im pretty sure that I blew it. Sometimes its best to better prepare for these things. I need mental mise en place. Its safe to say that I am sometimes a slow learner.

I am feeling fatter than usual lately. Partly because I have been eating a bit more than usual, and i think the other reason is that I am judging the outward appearance of others. In other words I am just not being that nice and making fun of how people look. I really dont know if there is a correlation between the two but my theory is that if I  ( Read more... )

i think that this place is going to drive me crazy on eday. the people and the atmosphere is not suitable for me for long term use. iTs a really good job, and I am entirely gratefull for the privilage to work here, but my heart lies elsewhere and as long as I deny my feelings there will always be a sense of boredom and malaise.