it's been a minute since the last post. I know. life is crazy and way less fun than it should be ( Read more... )

I guess it's been 17 weeks since I posted an entry. I wonder what to put up here from what I've been up to. It all seems so....so trivial. But it's my life. Sure, some Epic would be interesting. But probably stressful and way more than I want to handle. I've been busy. I've been sewing and partying and having fun and job-searching and having ( Read more... )

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My trip to Virginia has been canceled. As of now. Pv is a liar....I just wish I would've known sooner....

Okay, maybe I was being emotional, depressed, and too quick to jump the gun on Patrick. Maybe he didn't realize he was hurting my feelings. There's no excuse for his behavior, but I can't refuse his apology, especially when I didn't have to tell him where he went wrong. And he's just contracted me to make him a suit, which means he doesn't want ( Read more... )

I took Patrick out on friday night to meet some of my detroit friends. And throughout the 6 hours that we spent out, he actually talked to me for about 20 minutes. Twenty spread-out minutes. Sure, he was trying to be friendly towards my friends...but come on. I was still trying to have a good time, although I was pretty much on my own the whole ( Read more... )

wow. I've never seen anything quite as ugly as a newborn baby. damn.

"Be not so long to speak; I long to die ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm giving up. I mentioned that I crave this torment of unknowing...what I forgot to mention is that part of this relationship that it seems like we've developed has always been perfectly timed reassurance. Reassurance that I haven't been tearing my hair out for no reason, that the pain will have a pay off. I needed reassurance a week ago; ( Read more... )

If Pv doesn't hurry up and show me that he actually wants a chance with me, he's going to lose it. When I talk to him, he says he does. He feeds me all these lines...but I'm not going to be stupid enough to believe them anymore. I need proof. I need more than one conversation every two weeks. And that's the long and short of it ( Read more... )