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Keep going
I keep going and I haven't much felt like it the past few days. Things are still going on the up and up but I'm getting in a funk and keeping Kate happy has been a real chore for a while. I joke to myself that I can handle raising a moody teenager but it has been like this for over a year straight.
I'm getting very tired of it and tired of trying ( Read more... ) -
Just don't care much anymore
Four years ago, back in 2020, I yelled at my dad for seemingly not giving a shit about me or my brother and always prioritizing whatever random woman he was with. Remember that fact, it is important. He's older, so I can't keep the grudge up for long because I don't want to live with regrets or waste his last years with negativity between us, buy I ( Read more... ) -
I am happy, with regrets
Make no mistake, I am happy with my life. I am happily married to a woman who takes care of me, and cares about me, and that I love and care for. I am back in school, and I am long detached from the hell that was 2006 - 2010. Those 4 years were absolutely miserable. Everything went wrong, I starved every day all those years, no prospects for an ( Read more... ) -
Still here
My fiancee made it to the US, now we are dealing with immigration, wedding, and blah blah blah. It's pretty exhausting. I'm used to having no one depending on me, being unimportant wherever I go and being free/independent 24/7. It's been nice, and I've had some adjusting to do since now I have to make sacrifices, but these sacrifices are ones I ( Read more... ) -
Quit metalwave
Today I quit Metalwave.
Metalwave was important because it was a great idea filled with next level musicians. Why did I quit?
Many reasons
First was that since I joined the band I felt that the other band leader didn't like my drumming style. He wanted it more metal. James said what I was doing was fine, and initially the idea for the band was to ( Read more... ) -
Microsoft Outlook
Sometimes I just wanna scream
"STOP USING OUTLOOK 2010!!! IT DOESN'T WORK IN WINDOWS 10! IT'S A SHIT PROGRAM! YOU KNOW HOW ITS ALWAYS CAUSING YOU ISSUES? THATS A GREAT SIGN YOU NEED TO STOP USING IT! I CAN ONLY DO TEMPORARY FIXES TO AN OLD PROGRAM! USE A MODERN EMAIL CLIENT! WHATS WRONG WITH THE BROWSER VERSION? NOTICE HOW I HAVE ZERO EMAIL ISSUES ( Read more... ) -
Life is good
Just returned from a band tour in the North East with my band, and more people were reaching out to us about more shows, bigger shows. In the other band I play drums for we now have a 3 album record deal with an international record company. Dude.. shit is blowing up for me and I'm loving it. 5 years ago I was burned out, kinda quit trying so hard ( Read more... ) -
Cancer
I hate cancer. It's taken away my mom from me. I feel like she put all the hard work into making me not be a massive pile of shit, but she never got to see me actually be the man she wanted me to be.
My fiance has lost a tooth and... to be short, she might have oral cancer. She's been exposed to Chernobyl radiation so cancer is a serious concern. ( Read more... )
