Everytime Dana posts an entry about fun and happiness I get a little sick in my stomach. Whta did Morpheous say about thinking about ones past loves less and less and it hurting littler and littler? I am alive so I should live, there's always the emptiness though. theres a book about king arthur where one of the royal chracters is describe as ( Read more... )

Steve Jobs, Bernie Madoff
Circle I Limbo

Riceboys, Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Jerry Falwell, Hipsters
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Scientologists, NAMBLA Members
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Militant Vegans
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Barack Obama
Circle VI Buried for ( Read more... )

Josh and I had an intresting conversation the other day. I once claimed to not have any morals, thats how I survived in the world a sliding scale of ethics, but I guess that was a bit to glib. There are a certain set of things I live my life by or mayeb Josh was right mabe it was posturing I'm not sure anymore

So thanks to the wonders of Facebook I got in contact with an old friend. She's married now and still working as a detention officer. Marriage is another one of those things I wonder if people do out of habit or fear of dying alone or what have you. It's snowing here snow always makes me lonely. it does loomso beautiful though, no anger today just ( Read more... )

sometimes this feels a little guilty but then I get over it and vent ( Read more... )

I'm getting paid hella bank I just keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. hopefully the thing with guy will pan out then I could say peace to jim for good. Jim's a nice guy but he's just to god damn unpredictible

It's time to rage before I explode again. Bitch that sits in jim's office your a heroin addicted whore from vegas literal if you think spare change like info is the way 9/11 went down then you must violently overthrow the government or shut the fuck up and eat a dick. Oh and I don't give a shit about battered womans syndrome not everyone's life is ( Read more... )

oh livejournal you lost bastion of hope how you do shine like a rainbow in the dark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. SO I found out my ex is working in the goddamn that sounds too much like something lex would type. so I found out Kerri is trapped or was trapped here and I'm torn about my feelings stupid feelings

I read over the long angsty post again and I came to a realization. a few acutually I hate josh because crystal deserves better. I have a strange nack of character about only hurting people I don't know. after I know them I care about them and can't do to them what I do to the faceless crowd. sometimes. maybe it isn't that I know crystal maybe it's ( Read more... )

so I started talking to a ex girlfriend the other day. the only thing I have to say is that everytime she tells me how much fun she has with her peice of shit fiance it kills me. mainly because I hate him. it's a real fucking house moment. anywho I just needed the online equivilant of Aragorn screaming on the plains. I still love her and I always ( Read more... )