Its hitting me really hard today. The tiredness behind my eyes, the dark feelings across the inner workings of my chest. the feeling of being trapped in my own mind. I only missed it this morning. I guess as this gets worse I have to be more and more careful to try to do what i can. Its hard. Its hard to fight something that has taken me over like ( Read more... )

Its been forever since i was here, been busy. I'm now working gor the NPPL and about to finish my first semester of college. very exciting. Nick and I are almost to two years and i couldn't be happier with him. Ok class is about to end, so i've got to gets gone!

i graduate shortly and i can't wait, life is so scary after that, but its worth it.

hay i need addresses to the wonderful Ashcrafts and the marvelous turners and the beloved family of the Fluffy (and Chalimar) so if any one has them... Dani, if you could also pass around the word that i beat up a couple of jr.s and got their tickets so if you guys want to come, your more than welcome to !!!!

i know its ridicules to think that i'm the only one having a hard time. and i know i'm not. but it seems like whenever i ask for help, it puts me 2 steps behind. How many more times am i going to have to start cry in public for no reason, and be unable to stop before someone thinks "oh i guess we could try to do something?" an i'm really stressed ( Read more... )

i'm really thinking of dying my hair blond. it just, i don't know, i want something diffrent, and thats better than the tatoos i'm thinking of getting...
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ok so it isn't quite it, but i think those who saw aladdin 3 know what i mean.


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ok so i just got done with the play and i'm so fucking hyper!!!! weeeeeeee. like scary hyper!!!!! anyway, the play went great, even with a few hickups.... but they all worked out perfectly. oh and i was invited to start doing fensing on wendsday! oh ya and i have this pretty bruse on my arm from archery! ok i love you guys but i must do homework! ( Read more... )

so this saterday is "all hail meme day", senior presentation, the class play, and my 18th birthday... nifty right??? there are still tickets to the play so if you want one their $10, and when you but then tell them you want the credit to go to me. oh ya we have a preformance tonight too, so come to that one as well. ok i have to go get all dolled ( Read more... )

in talks with paintball's own bad news for modeling, there is a good chance it will fall through but i can hope!!! i'm doing ok, i'm at school and work. i tire quickly but i'm able to keep up! semester's almost over and i'm really excited for the play, if you want tickets just let me know!