what do i do with these thoughts. these thinking thoughts. its like they have a mind of their own... interrupting everything i do, they are everywhere i turn. stupid thoughts. this is a situation that i dont know what to do with. i have tried ignoring it, but it cant be forgotten. and everytime i think about it i go deeper and deeper, the quicksand ( Read more... )

so i officially suck at keeping this thing updated. its already been almost a month since i last wrote in here!! well not a lot has happened, i keep getting really drunk and blacking out.. doing stupid shit.. i need to quit that. i went to court last friday and got assigned a public defender. now i go on july 10th to meet him, and my hearing is ( Read more... )

so after i posted that last one, i got insanely fucked up with my friend alex. i dont remember much, but the police report says we were driving on the wrong side of the road and almost had a head on collision with a marked police car. alex then swerved at the last second and went over 2 curbs, and then i guess tried to flee!! regardless, we didnt ( Read more... )

i dont know, im just so done. i know no one reads this stupid thing and i dont even care. i just need to vent really badly. im sick of feeling like this, i need to get some sort of help, someone to talk to, i need a friend so bad ( Read more... )

so i havent been doing much lately. i got a job at peach's, i start monday at 7:30 in the morning. i think it will be good though, because i waitressed at CJ's, and its a breakfast-lunch place too... and i did really good there. hopefully i will get into the swing of things and bank on tips! yeah! lol ( Read more... )

okay, wow. i cant believe im writing in this thing again! im not too sure if anyone still reads my journal, but it has definitley been a minute. i dont know why, but i had the urge to read my journal last night. and after i read it, i felt inclined to write in it. so i guess i will be writing in my LJ again! lol. a lot of things have happened. too ( Read more... )

its three o clock in the morning and im looking at his side of the bed and its perfect. it reminds me that hes not here. I HATE IT. i miss him.
only 48 days left!
how am i going to do it??
=(

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!

so i got a new job. FINALLY! thank you breezy!!!
oh and my birthdays soon, this saturday, the 23rd. im gona be 18!!

tomorrow is my last day of high school ever and it seems so surreal. ive been waiting for this for so long.... im so glad its here. i dont think i coulda taken any more of palmetto high ( Read more... )