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This is a seperate journal I've made so my friends don't find out about my eating disorder. So obviously, my journal is mostly going to consist of entries talking about or related to it. So if you're not comfortable with that, you probably don't want to be added.

"there are a lot of empty people."

but i don't want to be an empty person. i don't WANT to BE an EMPTY PERSON.

i won't be.

every calorie is a death sentence.

i've given up ( Read more... )

only part of me wants to win this war ...

im so scared.
im a monster.
but part of me is ok with that ...

as long as im a thin monster ...

be thin be perfect or die trying.

but NO.

i dont know.

Gah. I never update in here. I probably should more. Venting's good ( Read more... )

Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the stars.

I wish I could be better. I wish I was a better person, could say better things, could just be better. Thinner. Smarter. Prettier. Nicer. Everything ( Read more... )

So, the fast didn't work out. I always give in. Always. Some part of my brain believes in being healthy, but it always only lasts only until I've finished eating, and then I panic and need to get rid of it. Any advice for staying strong, for resisting this?