and I'm already just sitting here wishing it was over and I could go back to school to be with my friends. I'm living at home and have no feelings for anyone here. But, at the same time I feel that if I leave I'm just running away from my fears. I set this summer aside to get things back on track with Tim but it was too late. We broke up and now ( Read more... )

I so need Dana to smack me right now.....

So I was going to bike to the post office to pick up the mail (2 miles I do it every day when I'm home), but I didn't want to wear my long jeans as it was a beautiful day outside and jeans are hot. So I find my dad's old work shorts, which are the only shorts I keep around, for biking and gardening and such. I feel something in the pocket, pull it ( Read more... )

Home on a friday night. Let my stupid summer begin.....

We talked tonight. He wants to be friends. I do not trust him right now. He's lied to me for at least 4 months and I can barely even look at him. I fell victim to my emotions, as usual, need to work on that. I am in a lot of pain right now, but I understand why this has to happen on an intellectual level at least. The rest will take time. I've set ( Read more... )

I've just signed up for something I know I don't want and know that I could be making $100 more than I will be doing the same thing somewhere else. I wanted to get away from the theatre and now because I'm so distracted and confused about my life right now and so detached from everything, I've ended up working in the box office at the Williamstown ( Read more... )

The count is now 8.

I stepped off the Greyhound Bus into the Albany bus terminal at 12:45 yesterday afternoon. The Chicago skyline was beautiful, my first bus driver disgruntled, and my last called me dear when he checked my ticket. I called mom from Fremont Indiana, and knit half a shawl on my 21 hour ride. I'm glad to be home although I feel like I've left my best ( Read more... )

I've written so much in my journal while here that I should have solved the world right now. But there is no solving in my writing, and there can't be, there is nothing for me to solve. I can't solve it on my own, and he doesn't care to contribute. I think I might be ready to deal with this, but there is 20-something hour bus ride from Milwaukee ( Read more... )

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