The possibly worst feeling in the world is feeling like you are living in someone else's house all the time and you don't know when you are leaving. My house is in Florida. Home is NJ. My heart is in New Orleans. The only home I really want to know is the one where I fall asleep in his arms every night and wake up to his gentle kiss each morning. ( Read more... )

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME ( Read more... )

Tonight I cried for the first time at what I'm leaving behind.

I fear this is the opening of the flood gates, and I will say I've lasted longer than the rest of my friends. I wish this were easier; simpler or clearer even. But it is what it is and I can't do a thing about it.

Yesterday was the BEST day! I woke up and played tennis with Katie, and I WON!!! Then I had lunch with an old faculty friend. Then I got to see Sweet Signatures, our female a cappella group, James Pieper, and Twisted Measure, our co-ed a cappella group, live on the lawn in the gorgeous sunshine. Kenzie paid me the money she owes me and I sold some ( Read more... )

In less than one week it will be May. May 2006. A month I have conciously been "awaiting" for four years, or even longer. And although I am happy with its arrival, its an anxious sort of feeling. I am anxious for it to arrive. Nervous for it to arrive. And I am absolutely unsure of what to do with myself. I just want to enjoy my last few weeks ( Read more... )

No tennis. Good food with good friends. Clean room. Wine. Bubble bath. Candles. Movie/TV. Missing the love of my life. I wish he would come home soon, just for a little while. I'm missing him so badly on a rainy day where all I want to do is cuddle in bed. And last night when all I wanted to do was dance and feel pretty with the one who adores me ( Read more... )

disappointed further by the people I would expect the least. Once again you have proven your utmost maturity to me in your handling of situations with me. Threatening IMs and hanging up the phone are how a mature adult usually does handle things. I'm sorry you view me as such a fucking disappointment, but that's your problem not mine. I'm done ( Read more... )

I had the most amazing weekend I can remember in an EVER so long time. I got to be the girl that everyone hates this weekend. I got to be the girl who is so happy everyone can see it and think I wish I was her. And I loved every minute of it. This past weekend I felt like eveerything was right. Everything was what I dreamed of my life being ( Read more... )

Who knows which way is up ( Read more... )

Yesterday the boys finally crashed, their phones were off because they were sleeping. I'm so glad he finally took a day and is taking care of himself. He went to bed at 11pm the night before and slept until 4pm the following day. I'm happy he took a day. Was kind of hoping the phones were off cause they were on their way home, and in a way I guess ( Read more... )