To know that it's really finally over ( Read more... )

Dear Matt,

It will always bother me when other girls flirt with you - regardless of my insecurities. I can learn to ignore it, because I love you. But I will never be able to be OK with it. I don't care if you're fine when guys flirt with me, it doesn't matter. The point is this is how I am. I know I have to forgive myself for all of the shit I've ( Read more... )

Consume my mind.

I wish I could just delete him.

This is so hard.

I hurt so much.

And I hate myself for being the cause of it.

At least maybe if I didn't remember, I could stop crying.

How I can go from being the "cutest asian ever" to the girl he sings about, "let's play this game, called when you catch fire I wouldn't piss to put you out."

Maybe we weren't meant to be together. I just don't understand how I keep fucking up. Or am I fucking up? I don't even know anymore. It's gotten to the point where I don't even stop to think ( Read more... )

My friends mom is dead. My boyfriend broke up with me. I have way too much work to do for school this week, and I got reamed the FUCK out by my manager today for not being able to make it to work on Thursday because THAT'S WHEN THE FUCKING FUNERAL IS.

I can't believe she's dead.
I can't believe he doesn't love me anymore
I can't believe she thinks I'm ( Read more... )

I'm done being friends to people who take me for granted. I'm done caring about people and having it thrown back in my face. I take pride in the fact that I would do fucking ANYTHING for the people I consider friends, and in return I get my feelings doused in kerosene and lit up like the fucking fourth of July.

I know that maybe people aren't used ( Read more... )

First post.

I had my job interview today. It went surprisingly well =] Jayne, my boss lady, is really nice. She kind of looks like the wicked witch of the west (I'm not sure if she's used a tooth brush since it was invented) but she's really nice. Hopefully she'll stay that way. I haven't had a job with a sweet boss in a while, what with Kathy ( Read more... )