FUCK. EVERYTHING. Just, fuck it all. Life is just this sick game that you mostly lose at. It's just a game with no rules. So it doesn't matter if you get get fucked over all the time. It's just probability. Pure cold math. Except you can't really get any answers from it. Just anger and frustration. You keep playing thinking you have to win sometime ( Read more... )

I miss my dad so much. I can't believe he's gone. It's like every memory of him is like a dream, like he never existed. But it hurts so much so I know he did and I'll never see him again. I wonder when it will stop feeling so bad. 

I want to smash someones face. I've written about this girl I know and I'm writing about her again. I used to work with her at my previous job and she is a pretty cool person. Unfortunately I really hate that she has everything she wants and more. She started out at the same level as me at work and we both did really well. Then she starts working ( Read more... )

So I find out today that it is mandatory to get all your documents attested before you try finding a job in Dubai. I leave on Monday and I still haven't gotten all of my certificates from my college. Neither do I have the money or the time to go through the process of attestation. I got my salary today, which is very little and which is supposed to ( Read more... )

How do you deal with grief? My entire life feels like it's been shattered and nothing matters anymore. This is not fair, is all I kept thinking during the funeral. Why does my family have to go through this? We've already been through so much. And now this ( Read more... )

My dad passed away today.

I almost don't believe it.

 Tomorrow is the last day of college ever. I've been waiting for this day for more than 3 years and I don't know if I want it to end. It's been a long time coming and in an ideal situation I would be ecstatic. But after this, after all the exam, I have nothing good to look forward to. Just my normal painful life except for the 20+ km commute by ( Read more... )

 Absolutely hate my family right now. 

 MY LIFE IS SO BORING!!! WHYYY?!

 Worst kind of day ever. 
I'm too tired to even talk about it. I should probably go to bed soon. FUCK! Why is my life like this?